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July 31, 2009

Arrrrgh.

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , — marathonmaiden @ 16:36

Going to try and make this short as I’m running late to head out to the Keith Urban and T.Swift concert tonight.

I got a semi-great 12.5 miler in. The time / pace was pretty quick, but impending severe t-storms will do that.  Luckily I didn’t get struck by lighting (just missed the beginning of the storm) but I got soaked.  And I don’t like precipitation.  I had to hold my arms out and pretend to like it waving my hands around to lighten my mood.  I’m sure ppl thought I was more crazy than usual. But once I was thoroughly soaked (and I mean my clothes were raining too) I kind of just gave in and the run became pleasant.  It’s the transition from 100% dry to 100% wet that sucks.

I also did week6day3 of the pushup challenge.  Technically that means I’m done with the program and ready to do the final test.  I think I might repeat this past week (as I’ve done with weeks 4 and 5) because I feel like I could use a little more strength before actually pounding out 100 in a row.

But my ARGH moment came just now, as I finished up a section on an MCAT practice test.  I just spent the last 2ish weeks really cramming hard.  But if you looked at my results from today I have not improved. ONE. FREAKING. POINT. This is the most frustrating thing of my life.  I’ve worked my butt off and I have nothing (at the moment) to show for it. I can’t even image what test day is going to bring if this is only a practice. Now I’m worried sick because I’m afraid I’m seriously going to fail it. If after 9 weeks of studying and the last 2 having studying being my job and I’m where I was 9 weeks ago, I see a problem.  A big problem.

I’m prolly putting too much pressure on myself. But the pressure is totally warranted as this test is a huge component for deciding my future, or at least when / what medical school I apply to. I know that maybe in the big grand scheme of things, this isn’t so bad.  And I know that it’s mostly a psychological thing at this point. But man, I just want some positive feedback from my brain.  And just as a note, I’d appreciate good vibes *hinthint* over words such as “you’ll do fine, you’re a smart kid” ect because too many ppl have been telling me that and it just adds to the frustration.

*LeSigh* I need to chill out. It’s just so damn hard to do with the test being so close. I do have some things to look forward to: A) concert tonight B) running tmrw morning with a friend C) Aug 5th at approx 13:10.

Now let’s hope I survive that long 🙂

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2 Comments »

  1. WOOHOOO enjoy the concert!! I saw him with Lady Ant…I didn’t know he was performing with T. Swift and some concerts. Did Sugarland cancel again, or was he scheduled with T. Swift? It was an awesome show 🙂

    Comment by Tay — August 1, 2009 @ 02:34

  2. Wow- hope you have a blast at the concert! I recently saw Sugarland (above poster mentioned it) and LOVED it! Enjoy the night and forget about everything else, at least for a few hours. You deserve the break. Great job on the run, too!

    Comment by LARunner — August 1, 2009 @ 09:51


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