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August 25, 2009

Well now

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , — marathonmaiden @ 19:27

that kind of sucked.

I planned to do a tempo run this morning, kind of as a last hoo-rah before the half on Labor Day (roughly 11 days away?).  I did a mile warm up then took off for a planned 6 at tempo.

Well, I did run those 6 faster than the warm up.  That might just be all I can say about it though.  The overall tempo pace was about 45-60 seconds slower than my usual (re: treadmill) tempo pace.   So. Incredibly. Disappointing.

I’m trying to look at it as half full because it’s still about 40 seconds faster than my usual runs outside (easy paced) and wayyyy faster than my legs have been telling me to go lately. And I could tell that the run got faster as it went on.  Since I don’t have a Garmin to tell me my pace though I have no idea where I started nor where I ended.

But since it wasn’t what I wanted to do I’m kind of pissed.  And it definitely makes me want to rethink this whole half business.  I think I’ve written this before but I’m a “go big or go home” person and I don’t want to just plod through this race.  I want to put my best effort forward.

Part of the problem is that I’ve only really thought about this race for 6 weeks; not the 12 I typically put into half training.  This is leading to a certain confidence lowering in and of itself so this weak run this morning definitely didn’t help.  I wanted to hammer in some confidence man!

I’m thinking of trying to tempo it up tmrw morning again but shortening the tempo portion to 4.5 miles.  Not sure if this will help at all on any level.  1) If I can’t do it my confidence is going to drop. 2) If the run goes like it did today it doesn’t matter how long it is because it’ll be a progression. 3) If today was slow because my body is run down (don’t think so but I’m a bad judge of these things) then trying to push hard again might do more harm than good.

So, despite all the reasons to NOT re-attempt I think I’m going to take the bull by the horns and stop whining.  And just do the damn thing.  If I fail, I fail. I’ll reassess the half after that I guess.  It’s just really frustrating because I’m such a Type-A that not being able to do something is utter failure.  Illogical yes but how my brain thinks. Thoughts on re-doing the tempo tmrw? I really am conflicted here and without wise words from you folks I will prolly try to overachieve.

The rest of my day wasn’t so bad or lackluster.  Since I’m a third year preceptor I opted out (completely not ok though) of today’s activities to do workshops with the Peer Health Advocates.  There isn’t enough space in all bloggerdom to tell what we’re doing (or at least all the ideas that we’re generating) but I am SO PUMPED for all the activities we’re doing this upcoming year.  I’ll definitely share the fruits of our labor but it was so worth getting the nasty looks from members of my precepting group (the how-dare-you-skip ones)

Unfortunately the one precepting activity I *had* to go to conflicted with the ROCK CLIMBING the PHAs were doing tonight.  BOO. I’m kind of upset about that even though there was no way to get out of precepting.  C’est la vie.  Supposedly there will be similar trips in the future but it would have been really nice to A) go rock climbing B) for free C) bond with the other PHAs D) over dinner.  I mean I love the actual precepting come orientation and semester time but this training thing (as a third year doing the EXACT SAME ACTIVITIES for each year) is getting wicked annoying.

I think this post came off kind of bitter and / or rant-y.  Definitely not the mood I’m in right now haha but (as many of you know) most of the interesting stuff to write about is that way because there’s so much emotion behind it.  Same with the really really good stuff too but I’m all melodramatic haha.

P.S. Still no ice cream in sight.  I might just have to break down and walk to CVS.

2 Comments »

  1. Nah, don’t try to re-force the tempo tomorrow. Just recollect yourself with good miles tomorrow and move on. You aren’t in training right anyway right? So just relax, hit it out with revenge next week.

    Comment by veganfritz — August 25, 2009 @ 21:12

  2. we just miss the paces sometimes, no biggie. just move on and dont worry about it 🙂 you will do great with your half and will nail the next tempo run!

    Comment by aron — August 26, 2009 @ 17:48


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