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July 7, 2010

Lame and Out of Focus

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , — marathonmaiden @ 11:00

I so desperately need a vacation.

Unfortunately it’ll be another 3 weeks before my class is over.  And then another 2 until I take my test.  And then I start my job.  Ugh. So much for an actual summer. But I am looking forward to having those two weeks of no classes.  Like a lot.  Yes I have full length tests to take during that time buttttt.  It just feels different.

It’s almost like I’m waiting and waiting for those two weeks to get here.  And then I know they’ll fly right by.  Funny because I don’t have plans for them, and in all likelihood I won’t ha!, but I’m still wanted them to get here. Right. Now.

Must. Re. Focus. 🙂

Despite having a really great race over the holiday weekend, (you guys are way too kind with your comments! But thanks anyway 🙂 )and remembering that racing is very fun, nothing has really transpired in terms of actually planning to do more racing.  Partly sheer laziness: I don’t want to actually look up races.  Partly I’ll plead the poverty line: I am working for AmeriCorps for the next 12 months.  And partly I’ll blame the weather: Tuesday was over 100* ambient temp and felt like 104*.  Then again, maybe I shouldn’t blame the weather because a lot of you routinely hit that 😉

I have been running a little bit though.  I mean, I think you’d have to commit me if I didn’t.  In terms of running lots and lots I’ve stayed fairly committed to running less than I have been.  I think I mentioned it at the beginning of the month (which, by the way, was a week ago?! Time goes by wayyyy too fast) that I took some days off, then raced, and since then I’ve been doing some light stuff.  I’ve been going crazy, however, without that physical release and I think that’s contributing to my lack of focus, or rather my easy distractability, lately.

In terms of my body: my legs were kind of sore in the days post-race.  Nothing “OW” inducing but I was definitely working muscles that had not been worked before.  Funny how running fast is so not the same as running easy.  Go figure. I actually stretched. *GASP*.  Crazy, right?

I did also lift on Monday and it was HARD. I’m very sore right now. Well I was on Tuesday when I started drafting this post, today (Wednesday) is better but my chest is still a bit sore.  Weird how only one area is bugging me. Further actually making me want to stretch!  And, trying to see a silver lining in the “heat wave” hitting the good old NorthEast, the idea of stretching is more appealing because I don’t want to curl up into a ball and warm up post-run.

Despite that soreness of race + lift, the runs have still been on the quick side.  I think I’ve mentioned it before but following a hard effort it seems to not require too much additional effort to keep that speed in the days post-race, tempo, interval.  Inertia if you will.  My body is primed for it now. Doubly so since my running wasn’t too shabby before the 4th.

And, like I feel like I’ve said a lot lately, the whole lack of sleep thing must place a role on some level.  I just seem to run better sleep deprived.  Not too sure the source of my insomnia either: all the thoughts that run through my head (I cannot for the life of me turn my brain off! WTF?!) or the weather (I like to snuggle under the covers.  Hard to do when the temps don’t get below 75* overnight).  I’m sure there’s a breaking point but for now I guess I’ll just revel in the moment of quasi-fastness.

But nothing worth shouting from rooftops for.

I am, however, looking forward to my upcoming trip to Philly.  Sure the first part of the trip is work: job training.  But the second part I’ll be visiting one of my really good friends from high school who I never see because she’s in Philly and I’m, well, not.

Due to the fact that in a week I’ll be there, I’ve been thinking of how I’ll fit running in.  I don’t yet have the day-to-day schedule but it’ll follow something similar to 9-5.  Obviously running doubles or LR and whatnot won’t happen but I’m hoping to get a unique perspective of the city via running. Even though it’s hard to really believe sometimes due to how much I run but a short run is better than no run. Any tips?

And, of course, I’ll have ample study material with me.  When do I not? I’m actually that kid who brings her flashcards around with her so that I can be as productive and prepared as possible.  Major nerd alert again.

Interestingly I did study teleportation this past spring semester...

So I’m wondering how I’ll reconcile the amount of work I have with the training I’m in the city for.  I’m sure it’ll all work out but I’m type A.  So I worry about these things.

I mean, everything always works out in the end, but I’ve just been feeling out of focus (duh I did title this post that way) and distracted.  Which is why I haven’t posted in a couple days.  Everything I seem to do is covered in lame sauce.  Nothing terrible has happened or anything but I’ve just been feeling a bit stifled where I am.

So…yeah….lame and out of focused.  Kind of like this post. But life can’t all be fireworks and glory.

I’d still appreciate a vacation though 🙂

Now off to study some more.  Or at least try too!


  1. Hellllo type a neighbor!

    I’m headed out of town on Friday to Michigan. ANNND I’m currently NOT running. That’s one thing I’m super frustrated with is that running takes so little preparation and time compared to everything else!! Obviously I’m not flying my bike for a 3 day trip. Luckily my hotel has a gym and a pool, and whatever else I miss, well I guess I’m calling this weekend rehab. The end.

    So Philly. My dad lives in Philly! Last time I was there I did almost all of my running along the Schuylkill river. I’m not sure how close to that you’ll be… but check it out!

    Comment by erika @ Dr.TriRunner — July 7, 2010 @ 11:31

  2. p.s. my new house mate looks A LOT like you. You really could be sisters. Only her name doesn’t start with a K…

    Comment by erika @ Dr.TriRunner — July 7, 2010 @ 11:31

    • Too funny about the housemate! Maybe I have a long lost twin haha. And thanks for the link. I’m definitely going to check it out and see where my hotel is located in relation

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:08

  3. I totally know how you feel about being unfocused! It’s like nothing is wrong, but nothing is right either. Is that how you are feeling?

    Comment by Matt — July 7, 2010 @ 11:37

    • Totally. It’s unsettling haha. I feel like my brain just doesn’t want to focus so everything is distracting me!

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:09

  4. Philly is a very runnable city so I hope you manage to find time to get some good runs there (who are we kidding, OF COURSE you will!)

    My girlfriend went to school in Philly and I’ve lived within an hourish of the city for the past 6 years so I’ve gotten quite a bit of Philly running in. I definitely second the Schuylkill River loop. It’s a well marked 8.4 mile loop around the river, giving you views of Boathouse row and the Art Museum. Slightly northwest of that, there’s Forbidden Drive which runs along the Wissahickon. It’s a little less busy (around the boathouses/art museum area, the river trail tends to get crowded with tourists, bikers, walkers, rowers, etc) and really purdy. If you’re looking for hills, just outside the city Manayunk has them (and is an adorable little town). Just my two cents 🙂

    Comment by Jess — July 7, 2010 @ 11:49

    • Whoops, the pitfalls of using aforementioned girlfriend’s computer 😛 That last comment was me

      Comment by runningmanz — July 7, 2010 @ 11:50

      • Darn I was hoping for a new reader 🙂 But I’m definitely going to have to check out the Schuylkill area. Sounds really cool!

        Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:10

  5. depending on what your social life is going to be like you will have plenty of time to run 9-5. esp if you get up in the AM, or want to unwind in the pm. if you are going to join a gym, i suggest doing it next to/near to where you work!!! and it’s not like you are a stranger to fitting in w/o’s with a full day (if i remember your school schedule this past year…) 🙂

    oh! and i totally think you are working your a$$ off and we will be evenly matched (hopefully) when i make a comeback. i’m honestly not sure about running- how it will go, if i will be in pain, if it is even a good idea to pursue at any hard effort level, etc. all things i will find out. in any case, keep up the great work.

    Comment by Lacey — July 7, 2010 @ 12:13

    • Hahaa I was just talking about the training. My work schedule is actually very likely going to be wayyyy flexible. And YES to your comeback. We’ll just go with how you feel but I’m thinking you’ll come back wayyyyyyy strong 🙂

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:12

  6. Isn’t it weird? I know what you mean about the soreness in different muscles. I can’t believe how much more sore I can get from a 5k race than a 6-mile training run…

    Comment by Amy @ Second City Randomness — July 7, 2010 @ 12:15

  7. I just decided to face the fact that I have to start focusing on the GMAT. And now I’m sad.. and feeling for you..

    Comment by BostonRunner — July 7, 2010 @ 13:57

  8. When I did the 9-5 I used to get up early to run. For me it was better than trying to run after work.

    Comment by Jess — July 7, 2010 @ 15:42

    • I’ll definitely be running early. Hopefully I don’t annoy the person I’m sharing the room with during training!

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:13

  9. I can understand the need for a break. its hard to just study and keep focused! Hope you have fun in Philly!

    Comment by J — July 7, 2010 @ 16:20

  10. I’ve been sore somewhere for the past two weeks, including today and I took yesterday off AND stretched. Teach me for doing both of those, ha! I had a miserable long run and ended it at 10….I thought of you and what you do and thought it was better to end it and see if I could pick up another 10 tonight. So that’s the plan :). Hope you’re soreness goes away quickly and you’re back to lifting soon. And just a reminder: STAY FOCUSED 🙂

    Comment by Jill — July 7, 2010 @ 17:33

  11. It’s been soooo hot hot hot in Philly; I vote you run in the morning when you are there. I worked 8-6pm last year, and typically woke up at 5am to work out. 12-13 miles in that time frame was totally doable because my commute was reasonable. Running after a long draining training day in the HEAT might feel like a chore rather than a way to escape and release, but who knows! I love what you said about using running to gain a unique persepective of a new city. So true.

    The Schuylkill is pretty cool and boathouse row is certainly worth checking out. 🙂

    Comment by sweatykid — July 7, 2010 @ 17:41

  12. Okay did I miss the announcement of your city of choice? Is it Philly? I lived in Philly for 3 years. Can give you some deets if needed.

    It’s good to lose a bit of focus before your test … not multiple days worth, but you need to decompress, let the mind wander so you can gear back up for the final push. Also, after a race it’s common to be a bit out of sorts.

    Comment by a marathoner — July 7, 2010 @ 17:56

    • Nope not Philly. I’m just going there for training. Funny how you should mention the losing focus for a day or two being a good thing. I had someone else tell me that exact stuff today. Unsettling but my mind probably does need a break.

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:15

  13. Ugh, I know what you mean about studying! I only have about a week left, and I feel like I’m dying. I’m sure the MCAT is a TON harder than my RD exam, though. It’ll be a great feeling when it’s finally over!

    Comment by Emily — July 7, 2010 @ 18:24

    • We can be miserable studying together then. I’m sooooo looking forward to the test being over. I’ve told my friends that I should be home by 1400 that day and by 1401 we’re drinking haha!

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:16

  14. I always feel exhausted after a race- doesn’t matter what distance. You’ve probably just hit a slump. You aren’t close enough to the end to be almost done, but you’ve studied long enough that you’re feeling tired of it. Hang in there- you’re going to get your mojo back and rock the exam.

    Comment by Chelsea — July 7, 2010 @ 19:55

    • Amen. Exactly like marathon training I think. Thanks for the encouragement 🙂

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 7, 2010 @ 21:17

  15. Uh not so fun!!! Your awesome though!!! your almost done good luck with everything!

    Comment by lindsay — July 7, 2010 @ 20:44

  16. I’m sorry you’re feeling so stressed out – but just think of the relief you’ll feel when it’s over. Bam! No more dumb standardized tests!

    It’s funny about vacations, when you are a poor post-collegian. I haven’t taken a “real” vacation in years; any time I go somewhere it is in conjunction with work or some other task. But just a change of scenery can be very invigorating, or at least a breath of fresh air.

    Comment by sarah — July 8, 2010 @ 08:57

  17. I think you’re unfocused because you don’t have a race or a plan leading towards a race. It’s totally understandable.
    Have fun on your Philly vacation. I think it will be fun, especially if you can go run and tour the city a little bit.

    Comment by The Laminator — July 8, 2010 @ 11:25

  18. Wow. Just came across your blog and unfocused or not you’re doing some pretty amazing things! Good luck and from your running resume it doesn’t seem like a few days off from running will hurt you too much! Sometimes a little rest is all you need to feel a little clear-minded again.

    Comment by Dawn — July 8, 2010 @ 11:51

    • Awww thanks. You’re too kind! I think the general consensus is that I need some R&R haha 🙂

      Comment by marathonmaiden — July 8, 2010 @ 16:43

  19. I’ve been doing the unfocused thing, too. Sometimes that’s good though! There’s just so much going on with me right now – and it sounds like you’re going through the same thing!

    Comment by Kim — July 9, 2010 @ 16:37

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