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April 19, 2011

“Don’t Let That Smile Deceive You”

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Boston Marathon 2011: 3:48.46.

Easily a PW. But, hey, it was bound to happen at some point, right?

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Start Offset


Proj. Time

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I mean, I’m alive and all buttttt as a precaution remember I packed my id, money and *insurance card* into my sports bra because I felt that it would be a bad race.  And, while I didn’t use anything of that yesterday (but ended up in the medical tent), I will on Thursday as I fork over a co-pay to see the doctor (annoyingly the first appointment available)

Race day started out decent, I was awake wayyyy earlier than my alarm because of anxiety but  I was actually excited for a race before race day for once after the dailies dinner! This feeling faded on Sunday but Saturday night I was pumped.

Dear friends who have given me more support than I probs deserve!

I got to the start around 0730, actually got to use a porta potty that hadn’t been used yet (!!) and hung out for  a bit chatting with some of my RW friends. (Kevin and Nick). Kevin’s first words to me? “You don’t look happy to be here”.  Which was true by the time Monday morning rolled around and we chit chatted about lots of things. I looked for another friend, Sarah, but never found her before the start despite us texting to find each other.  Nick and I walked to the start where he so graciously let me wear his throwaway sweatshirt! We found our corral, talked strategy, wished each other luck and we were off.

The race started out well for me.  The first two miles were probably a little faster than I should have run them (7:45, 7:30) but that’s roughly the goal pace I set for myself (I was targeting a 3:20 remember) and they felt good.  After mile two, my knee started hurting.  Not that much so I settled around 8 minute pace and readjusted my goals.  All the while, wearing the tiara and trying to feed off the energy of the crowd.  Everyone loved my tiara.  I had my first initial permanent marker’d on my leg so I got a lot of “Go Princess K!” cheers.  The little kids loved the crown too. One older gentleman told me “You keep up with those big boys Miss America”.

I don’t really remember much of the middle miles except trying to feed off that energy.  Because I was in pain.  The crowds at Boston are SO AWESOME. (And Caroline I looked for you at that DD by BC in the late miles! Couldn’t find you though) So I slapped every single hand that was outstretched and did enjoy myself in that respect.

But I cannot tell you the number of times I thought about dropping out (because I stopped counting) and when a train flew by in Natick? Yeah I thought about that $20 in my bra. By mile 16 the pain was lingering up my hip and down into my feet and continued on for the rest of the race.  I really wish that I had seen one of my friends who was on heartbreak because I needed to have someone tell me to htfu.

Im in the all black and tiara. Taken by a friend (runningsnake) around the mile 19 water station

And then around mile 21/22/23 (I can’t really remember) I felt something pop and then radiate pain up and down my leg.  This is also soon before the moment where I accepted beer from the BC boys (who among all the people on the course loved my tiara the most)

My pace dropped off SO MUCH during the last half and especially post-heartbreak and I know I looked like death in the late miles.  It was such a struggle. I wanted to stop and cry so many times.  I knew that I couldn’t stop (although you all will be proud to know I did for water THREE TIMES!) because if I did that then I wouldn’t start up again. I feel bad for my family because they didn’t know if they were going to keep getting the next 5k split text. They were all in Boston waiting for the call “heyyyyy I’m not going to be there”

As I rounded the corner of Hereford and Boylston I saw my family this year (last year they missed me) with my sister blasting her vuvuzela and that gave me the kick to push hard at the end.  After crossing the finish line I meandered over to the medical tent where they had no ice (wtf?) and got seen by a doctor because I couldn’t bear weight on my leg.

With the above said, I finished the race not meeting my hopes but doing MUCH better than my expectations. Despite the real pain of my leg (and not just the pain that comes with hauling your body over 26.2 miles) I can’t say that I’m really pissed off about it or angry.  That doesn’t mean I’m overjoyed with the actual race itself (or my foolish pride in sticking out the whole thing) as I know I did lots of things wrong leading up to the race. But my expectations heading into Athlete’s Village were not the greatest and therefore not being in surgery right now is a plus (because that was my fear going into the race)

This is the second year I’ve run Boston and the second year I’ve run the race overtrained and injured and the second year Boston knocked me on my ass (because despite PR-ing last year at Boston it still wasn’t all it could be).  Good thing I’m moving to a new hometown and can have a new hometown race 😉

"I F$#%ing Hate This Course" <-- one fleeting thought that passed through my head in the late miles.

I met up with Lindsay (and I have to apologize to her because I was really irritated with my family and cranky because I couldn’t find her and they all wanted to leave the city.  And I’m pretty sure she witnessed it! But once I saw her I instantly relaxed. So thanks girl!) and we wandered a bit and got lost trying to find the T because streets were shut down. Stupidly I didn’t get a picture so you’ll just have to trust it happened.

Again, thanks to all who tracked and texted and commented on my last post and fb’d. And read this whole damn thing (I swear someday I’ll learn to be concise with my words). Also to note: other than the blistering sunburn I have and my knee, I feel good. I kind of hate my fast recovery time after a marathon because it makes me want to go out there NOW and run rather than bask and recover, because like I’ve said to a few of you, I have to be happy with my performance given how I was feeling this weekend (I really downplayed how bad it was. Silly pride)

Fingers crossed I get something resembling good news at the doctor on Thursday.  I’m just trying to relax. I took today off of work too and I’m glad I did, although relaxing is hard to do with a sunburn! Ouch! And trust me: there will be no running until I get the go-ahead from my doctor. Not that I really could anyway. I really can’t in good conscience. The medic at the tent told me he thought it was a tear in my flexor tendon. Because when he placed his hand on my calf and told me to push down I couldn’t.  We’ll see in a few days though. In the meantime I have some jokes to read. Holler.


  1. Sorry your race wasn’t the awesome race you wanted it to be. And even though you PWed, that time is still better than anytime I will ever make running 26.2 miles. So I guess you can have that. You can now think, “I still ran it way more awesome than Paula.”

    You are welcome. 🙂 Great job persevering! I would have walked once I heard anything popping that didn’t contain a snap and a crackle beforehand.

    Comment by Eat:Watch:Run — April 19, 2011 @ 11:21

  2. Dude, I know all too well how rough Boston can be. Back in 2009 I found myself dry heaving on the side of the course and basically hallucinating after mile 18. lolz, fun times. *But* I finished and lived to run another marathon and so will you! I think the not-so-great races really help us to appreciate the days when everything comes together and PRs result. I know I say that all the time…but it’s true. You are for real a BAMF. Take some time to rest and heal and drink some beer! 😉

    Comment by Megan (The Runner's Kitchen) — April 19, 2011 @ 11:32

  3. CONGRATS on finishing!

    I know it’s not the time you wanted, but hey- you still pushed through those last miles and that’s no easy thing to do.

    Trust me- I know how it is to be “off” after a race- I get cranky because I’m unrested and unfed. A bad combo. :p

    Good luck at the doctor this week and enjoy the days off!

    Comment by Amy @ Second City Randomness — April 19, 2011 @ 11:52

  4. Sorry about your PW! I have definitely been there. Glad to see you’re smiling in spite of it!

    Comment by shelby — April 19, 2011 @ 11:53

  5. I actually think I saw you and screamed your name! I’m sorry the race wasn’t the greatest for you, but we live and we learn, yeah? You are still awesome, and once you heal your running will be even better 🙂

    Comment by mealsformiles — April 19, 2011 @ 12:02

  6. Great job on finishing!! I have heard from a number of people that PR’ing in Boston can be difficult given the late start, hills, hype/etc. So, I’m just immensely proud of you for qualifying, running and finishing it!!

    Comment by Sarah — April 19, 2011 @ 12:52

  7. I hate that F*$king course, too. I wonder why we desire to go so much! I’m sorry the race didn’t pan out as you had hoped – you reminded me of my disaster last year on that damn course! You’re an incredible runner, please don’t let this one stinking race ruin it – you’ll be back!!

    Comment by Jill — April 19, 2011 @ 13:04

  8. Girl, I LOVE THE TIARA.

    Nice work on the marathon! I hope your leg turns out to be OK, a “pop” never sounds good….I had to take off 4.5 months after a stress fracture in my hip and it was hell on earth. So hopefully your recovery won’t be that ridiculous.

    Comment by Katherine @ Neon Blonde Runner — April 19, 2011 @ 13:31

  9. So sorry that your knee gave your problems. I’ll be praying that it’s not serious! You still ran a great race. I can’t believe you kept going! You are one determined girl. Congrats on another Boston.

    Comment by Shelly — April 19, 2011 @ 13:37

  10. You’ve got guts MM! (I just hope you don’t have any terribly serious injuries.) Take care and heal up soon! Glad to see your update, and love the tiara. Now take care of yourself and try to take it easy for awhile. 🙂

    Comment by Lisa — April 19, 2011 @ 15:06

  11. Whelp, you’re alive to tell about it. I’m just glad you finished with 2 legs-I was starting to worry! Good luck with the doctor this week…now’s your chance to do a little relaxing!

    Comment by K — April 19, 2011 @ 17:01

  12. Poor Baby!! OMG, what a trooper you are to finish that thing being in pain till the end. To feel a pop must have been really scary. Dang, I sure hope you get a positive word from the doctor. And girlfriend, you know you’re a true marathon stud, so despite this being Boston, it’s just another race. You’ll have many more studly marathons ahead.

    Comment by Flo — April 19, 2011 @ 17:11

  13. I love that you ran with a tiara! I know you had a frustrating race but how many people can say they got to run Boston 2 years in a row?? Wish I coulda been there to finally meet you, hindsight is always 20/20 and last week I regreted not training this year for it 😦

    Comment by Jenny — April 19, 2011 @ 17:16

  14. oh gosh i know the feeling of having a sub-par race at boston! seriously, those hills are a menace to society. the important thing is you FINISHED (and not by taking the train :)) i hope your injury is nothing too major and that some r & r will clear it up – you deserve it anyway!! congrats on gutting it out!

    Comment by hurdlingham — April 19, 2011 @ 17:21

  15. the important thing is that YOU FINISHED!! And I think you rocked it :):)

    Comment by Jess — April 19, 2011 @ 19:56

  16. oh, either way, you did it!! And that time is still awesome. Be proud of your work!

    Comment by lindsay — April 19, 2011 @ 20:12

  17. Oh dear, I’m so sorry, Karyn! But you still made it through, and that itself is a success. I think you did great, and now, put your mind to other things, okay? Enjoy something different, and relax. I hope your injury isn’t anything major!

    Comment by sophia — April 19, 2011 @ 20:29

  18. Hi! I know I haven’t dropped by in a while, but I have been silently following your saga…
    So i just want to say congratulations for pulling through. I know it must have been hard
    and you must have felt like crying more times than you let on but you showed a lot of strength
    and courage and that’s worth celebrating! Very impressive my bloggy friend.

    Congrats again on another Boston journey completed. Excellent job =)

    Comment by Laminator — April 20, 2011 @ 00:09

  19. I’ve got some good hometown marathons and a magician sports chiro down here waiting for you! Focus on healing… pretty sure a fresh batch of cookies will speed the process… maybe with a few beers.

    Comment by Lesley @ Racing It Off — April 20, 2011 @ 00:26

  20. Hey, we all have to have shitty races some time right? At least you made the best of what was turning into a bad situation and tried to enjoy yourself. Now rest up, figure out what’s wrong, get healthy and start kicking some ass!

    Comment by runningmanz — April 20, 2011 @ 00:44

  21. “Bad” is in the brain….because, I WOULD KILL to run and COMPLETE that race right now. ISn’t our hope and expectations sometimes our salvation and sometimes our downfall? It can lead to a sense of groundlessness, incompetence and “I should have…” but you are alive, and this is YOU. and your body will heal in miraculous ways and expose you to things about your expectations….

    Did I miss where you are moving to???

    Comment by Special K — April 20, 2011 @ 05:43

  22. OMG – a pop!? I really hope it’s just a passing thing. And that this will be your worst marathon ever, to date. Because it’s good to have a benchmark for things like this, right?

    Comment by sarah — April 20, 2011 @ 06:13

  23. Princess K! I love that you wore a tiara! Sorry to hear about the leg. I hate running a race when your mind is thinking about how much you hate it and how much you want to quit! Keep us posted on what happens Thurs. I’ll be thinking about you! Rest up!

    Comment by Lindsay — April 20, 2011 @ 06:21

  24. I know this isn’t the race anyone dreams of having, but I hope overall you enjoyed being apart of something so amazing…maybe in retrospect? 🙂

    shoot me an email, you won the betty crocker giveaway! amandacbrooks at yahoo

    Comment by Amanda-RunToTheFinish — April 20, 2011 @ 09:09

  25. OH MAN! You are crazy (crazy awesome? as of yet to be determined I guess by what the doctor says?) for completing it in such pain, and still with a time I can only dream of. You are the warrior princess 🙂 hehe. I definitely hope the Doc comes back with some good news Thursday… the whole “POP” thing makes me nervous! haha. Glad to hear about you able to get a little movement in on the TM today even if it was mostly walking and only 30 min, that’s hopeful! Way to HTFU!

    Comment by NaturallyFit Girl — April 20, 2011 @ 09:45

  26. Congrats on a great Boston run! I really hope you get some good news on your knee. I love that you wore a tiara the whole time! You are amazing! And just so you know, I’d love that time!

    Comment by jen — April 20, 2011 @ 10:30

  27. On a positive note, you drunk beer whist running the Boston marathon, that must be pretty hardcore! Hope you’re ok though!

    Comment by laura @ box run eat — April 20, 2011 @ 11:02

  28. LOL. No need to apologize. You just ran a marathon and had some pains going on. Haha I didn’t think of a picture either. I’m a bad blogger. Guess we will haveto do it again sometime! I’m just glad I did get to see you!! Even if it irritated your fam because we claimed to know where we were going… Oops.

    Hoping for the best at the doc… and with med boy. 😉

    Comment by Lindsay — April 20, 2011 @ 11:38

  29. Oh yeah and I can’t believe you ran in that tiara. I feel like I would be mad at it the whole time.

    As for the wanting to drop out bit — that’s exactly what I thought last year. Except I did a lot of walking and had an even worse PW 🙂

    Comment by Lindsay — April 20, 2011 @ 11:41

  30. Can you be anymore adorable in your tiara?!! Love it! It looks like you all got some lovely weather to run this race. I’m sorry it wasn’t your best performance–if it’s any consolation, I’d take that time i a heart beat!

    Enjoy your recovery time!!!

    Comment by Jess @ Blonde Ponytail — April 20, 2011 @ 13:27

  31. you basically ran a 3:48 injured with one leg! be proud of your mental toughness to stick it out. love the tiara btw!!

    Comment by SkinnyRunner — April 20, 2011 @ 13:44

  32. congrats on finishing! I hope your leg is okay!!

    Comment by Caree @ Fit-Mama — April 20, 2011 @ 17:16

  33. ahhhh…i just want to hug you.fingers crossed for you!

    and you rock!seriously hardcore

    AND thank you for that comment. I know”boo hoo the last 5k was flat” but seriously, it was some weird time warp/stuck in the golf course forever mindtrick. THANK you for making me feel better about it. year.

    Comment by tricia — April 20, 2011 @ 21:07

  34. Oh my GOSH congrats!!!!!!!! I think that the fact that you finished the boston is just about the most amazing thing ever. Way to go girl. Be proud!! (Oh and I hope you make those oatmeal chocolate chip cookies soon, they are soooo good!) xoxoxo

    Comment by megan @ muncher cruncher — April 20, 2011 @ 21:45

  35. Oh wow I hope that calf is ok. Congrats on finishing!

    Comment by Jess — April 20, 2011 @ 22:18

  36. Way to fight through it all, that is something to be proud of! I am thinking about you today, hope the Dr gives you good news!

    Comment by Stephanie — April 21, 2011 @ 09:15

  37. Congrats on pushing through it. Hope your recovery goes well and that you get good news from the doc! It was great to meet you!

    Comment by Nick — April 21, 2011 @ 11:55

  38. […] recovery from The Boston is going.  Like I said above, my muscles feel fine. But my sunburn […]

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  39. Oh girl, I’m sorry to read this cuz i know that had to hurt big time. Huge kudos to you for HTFUing the way you did. As always, in triumph and in agony, you are amazing. Sending all the best thoughts you way that your knee is nothing serious.

    Comment by Marcia — April 21, 2011 @ 17:59

  40. It’s funny, on Monday I thought long and hard about what to run with for fear of having to drop out as well. And it’s horrible because that’s not how anybody wants to feel before a marathon. I can quite literally feel your pain.

    Saw your update to this and it’s good to see it’s nothing more serious. Keep up with the treatment and you’ll be kicking ass again soon!

    Comment by angryrunner — April 22, 2011 @ 16:21

  41. Thanks for checking out my Boston Race Report at

    Impressive that you gutted out this race with so many obstacles. This toughness should serve you well in future races. Look forward to reading your future postings.

    Comment by RunFolsom — April 23, 2011 @ 21:18

  42. Congrats on finishing this and wow! what a great time!

    Comment by Simply Life — April 24, 2011 @ 11:27

  43. You still finished and looked good while you did it – so big congrats to that! Sad we didn’t get to meet but we WILL one of these days! Congrats again girl, hope your leg is getting better.

    Comment by Aron — April 26, 2011 @ 13:36

  44. […] Boston Marathon (and this report is a picture one). Worst marathon to date but one that I ran 100% injured. I don’t know whether to be proud of the fact that I did it or ashamed that I tried! But since I’m recovering nicely (thank goodness for finding a athlete-friendly PT!) now I’ll go with the former. And who can argue with a smile like this? […]

    Pingback by Previously on MM…April 2011 « MarathonMaiden's Blog — May 4, 2011 @ 16:23

  45. Oh my goodness, I am still totally in awe of your times. It sounds like this was totally a rough race, but congratulations on finishing! You looked great in your tiara!! 🙂

    Comment by Kim — May 4, 2011 @ 17:21

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